someone had just left their child? ranger couldn't understand how. no matter how often he saw the after effects of a parent not coping, it never ceased to amaze him that it could still happen. of course if it didn't, he and logan wouldn't have had chance come into their lives, but it was still hard to think about a parent just walking away. he could never do that with chance, no matter what happened. he lifted his eyes to match logan's gaze and he was almost sure he was thinking the same thing he was. he reached his hand out to rest it against logan's forearm gently and then he looked over at flynn.

he knew how busy the nurses were, how hard they worked and how while they probably thought the baby was adorable, they didn't really have the time to try and settle a baby, even though he knew they'd be doing an amazing job at trying. "if you want, bring him in here. we'll keep an eye on him and try and get him to settle." he said as he looked back at logan, hoping he wouldn't mind the impromptu offer but it felt like the least he could offer. he might have been useless to do much else at the moment but this, this he could do. he didn't think there would be an issue with policy, he and logan had been approved foster parents of chance before they'd adopted him so legally they could look after him.

he relaxed a little as logan squeezed his hand and agreed they'd talk about it when they were both back at home later. he knew it should be easier for him to get rid of the apartment, it wasn't like he had any doubts about committing to logan, they already had a son together and he couldn't imagine not being part of his life but he just didn't know how to start letting go of the space that had been his escape when a call had been too much, when they hadn't managed to get someone out of a car or out of a house before tragedy struck. he knew he could bring it back to logan and talk it out with him or just fall into his arms and hold him until the what ifs stopped but he hated the thought of bringing it back to the house. it was a good place, it was a great place and while he knew that logan and his siblings had been through a lot, the house was a safe space for them and their kids. bringing horror stories home was something he didn't know how to start doing. although he knew luke did, he took them home but he didn't know how he did it. he knew he'd have to explain this to logan when they talked about it, but he had some time to think of how to word it right.

he squeezed logan's hand softly to reassure him that it wasn't a problem with him. he wouldn't lie to him while he was right in front of him, and he was lying in a hospital bed. plus, he was sure that logan would bury him if he did it again, well maybe bury was a bit strong, but he'd be pretty unhappy with him. when he said it was about the baby, he saw logan relax a lot more and he nodded slightly. it was a heartbreaking cry to need to listen to and he wanted nothing more than to let the baby know that life was okay. he looked at the door as a nurse came in. she looked familiar but he couldn't place her name. "hi flynn." he said with something of a smile as he watched her come across the room to the bed. "yeah everything is fine." he said, knowing that she'd be checking his chart anyway. "we're just wondering, is the baby okay?" he asked, trying not to sound like anything but someone who was worried about the child, because that's all it was. he knew that too the wrong person it might sound like they were questioning the nurses but that wasn't it at all.

he smiled a little at logan's comment and he shrugged slightly. there wasn't a lot they didn't share but he was certain if pressed there would be at least one or two things. he hadn't grown up to be a big sharer really, he had four siblings and if you wanted something you had to fight for it or the younger kids pulled puppy dog eyes on his parents and more times than not they were believed. he'd grown out of that habit when he'd been a teenager and he'd eventually learned sharing was sometimes a good thing. especially when it was with someone you loved, like he did logan. the longer he saw with logan and the longer he talked with him the guiltier he was feeling about keeping this so hidden from him. he'd really thought he'd been doing the right thing but he'd seen the worry, see the fear and he couldn't deny it was eating him up a little inside to know he'd done that.

he smiled a bit more when he finally got a chuckle out of logan and had he been feeling better than he was he might have fist bumped the air but just because he was feeling better didn't mean he was 100% yet. every muscle in his body was aching from what he'd been through in the last few days and it was going to take a few days to go away. "i thought we shared everything?" he teased as logan leaned down to kiss his forehead. he closed his eyes at that and couldn't help but sigh with content. the person he'd wanted there more than anything was there and it just instantly made the situation feel so much better. the room didn't feel as empty as it had and it didn't feel as cold once logan was in it.

he felt logan's hand some to rest over his and he turned his hand over gently, linking his fingers between logan's so he could hold onto his hand gently. he knew they'd need to talk about the apartment but it was just always something that had been there. he did like having it there to go to when he worked late but he did know that he'd need to make a choice about it really soon. they had chance now and he was so settled at the family home. he could suggest that he and logan live in the apartment but he'd never ask him to think about it. not because he thought logan wouldn't but because he thought he might and that meant he'd be away from his siblings and the barn and knowing logan the way he did, he'd be unhappy if he did. "i do always try to message." he knew that wasn't the point though. "i get it though, promise to talk what to do about it over with you when i'm better?" he offered as a solution to now.

as soon as he pressed the button he felt the shift in the room and he saw logan's worry as his hands shifted. "it's okay, i'm fine." he promised, reaching to grab one of his hands again so he could reassure him. he just wanted to know that the kid was okay. there was nothing worse than knowing that a baby was alone and in distress and while he knew that nurses were busy, there should still be someone trying to comfort it. quinn must have finished her shift because there was no way that she'd have let that go on as long as it was. "i just want to make sure the baby is okay." he said as he glanced at the door. if he knew logan as well as he was certain he did, he'd be just as worried about the little tyke as he was. if the nurse that came to him didn't know, he'd see if logan could take a little walk and try and find out.

he'd gotten him there, he knew that. maybe he shouldn't have but it had been a logical point. the people you loved were supposed to drive you a little crazy sometimes. though he would try and hold fast to his promise to no joke about it too much anymore. it was easy to see how worried logan had been when he'd walked into the room and he knew that was his fault. it had made so much sense to him when he'd been telling quinn not to let logan know but now he was sane, medicated and feeling a lot better he could see her point.

he felt logan sit down on the bed next to him and he shifted across so he'd have more room to sit comfortably. when his fingers touched logan's cheek he did feel himself relax just a little. him being there certainly made ranger feel a hell of a lot better. if someone had told him he'd been so settled and happy in a relationship at this point in his life when he'd been a teenager he'd have laughed his head off. he wasn't going to settle down, he'd been one for fun and risk and lots of reward but then he'd met logan and that had flown out of the window because he couldn't look at anyone else now without comparing them to the man before him right now.

"alright, true," he said with a smile as he let his hand fall from logan's cheek down to rest on his leg gently. "might not be the best choice of words." and there was no way he wanted to tempt fate to take him away from the life he had now. it wasn't what he'd dreamed of when he'd been a kid but it was the only one he wanted now. he kept finding himself tuning out to listen down the hall to listen to the baby cry. it was almost heartbreaking to listen to and that was strange to ranger. normally he could ignore crying children if they were nothing to do with him because logic dictated that there would be someone there to care for them but it didn't seem like anyone could settle this kid. "poor kid." he mumbled softly as he brought his attention back to logan.

"well i wouldn't complain if they did spike it, but i promise i don't have those floaty out of this world feelings right now." he said with a slight grin. morphine was usually the only thing that did that to him and he certainly hadn't had any of that today. well that wasn't a great scale. he'd only forgotten once in the house and he'd never forgotten again, it was normally luke that coped that face. "well maybe we should go back to my place till he forgets about it." he was only half joking at that. he still had his own place even though he spent most of his nights at logans with him and chance but some nights when he finished early in the am he just went back to his place to avoid waking anyone at the other house. not that he thought leo would really hold today against him, they all liked to rib him but there wasn't a person you'd rather have on your side and even ranger knew it.

ranger smile a little as he took logan's hand and he held onto it a little tighter than he normally would as he watched him sit down on the bed next to him. "if i frustrate you, guess that means i fit in with the family." he really couldn't help himself. "last one, i promise." he said as he shifted a little to make sure there was enough room for logan on the bed next to him. he kept hold of logan's hand as he sat there, his fingers threading through the one person he really needed in the moment. he might have tried to keep it from him to keep him from worrying but he'd felt better the second he'd walked through the door. from the moment he'd met him, he'd wanted logan to be there. there was something about being in his presence that was just calming and gave ranger a sense that everything would be okay.

"oh yeah." ranger said as he finally let go of logan's hand and he raised it to rest his hand against logan's chest. "all you need is an axe slung over your shoulder." he glanced at the drip that still hung from the bed and he shook his head a little. "no drugs, just water." he said with a slight grin. "so if i'm crazy it's all me." he nodded slightly and then he brought his hand up to cross his fingers over his heart lightly. "cross my heart and hope to die." he was momentarily distracted by the sound of a baby crying coming from the hall but he did his best to ignore it, after all it's parents were probably with it and the nurses would almost certainly be fawning over it. "so on a scale of one to leo, how mad was he that he needed to go instead of you?"